I Screwed Up. What To Do?

As much as I believe I am aware of my words and actions, I screw up more often than I would like.  But it’s a journey, right?  We learn how we can do better and then we work (really hard sometimes) to be better.  This education applies not only to talents, skills, and habits but also to our attitudes, biases, and how we interact with others.

Recently, I ran into someone whom I had not seen in a year.  My first reaction was to reach out with open arms for a hug (our customary greeting) but I was so overcome with happiness I also kissed him on the cheek.  He hugged back and chuckled and we exchanged pleasantries as we always do, but I (seemingly not him) was uncomfortable.  What had I just done?  I immediately felt that I had crossed the line between business friends.  My mind screamed “INAPPROPRIATE.”  Yes, I know better, but my delight in seeing him had taken over.  Now, what to do???  As I pondered this question, we quickly went our separate ways.

It wasn’t until a short time later that I had the opportunity to do what I knew I needed to do.  Apologize.  He, of course, was gracious and said there was no need, but I knew I had been wrong.  As women, we are often quick to pounce on inappropriate behavior from men, yet frankly, we can cross lines too.

In a world where I imagine everyone to be respectful of boundaries,  courteous, and considerate of others’ personal space, I screwed up.  But, I’m a work in progress as I believe we all are.  And when the situation arises, I did what I would hope we all do.  Apologize.  And then do better.